The Journey Begins: Evolution

Updated: Nov 16, 2020

All species evolve on earth over time. Humans are no different. This evolution can be described as:

1. Personal development

2. Spiritual development

3. Professional development

Or any combination of the above.

I believe this is our essential purpose on this earth. The outcome of this evolution in our lifetime is to become our most authentic self. That is what this blog is about my musings regarding my evolutionary journey.

Many people will read this and scoff and think I’m crazy. My hope is it might resonate with others, maybe expose some to new ideas, expand others' knowledge or understanding or at the very least provide entertainment. For me writing and publishing this blog is the scariest thing I’ve ever done in my life. The purpose is to share my thoughts and feelings and be vulnerable. Lifting the masks and showing the world my truly authentic self.

My story, how it began.

Over the last few years, I have dove deep into my own personal healing journey. What most people know about me is that I am a Nurse Practitioner, wife, and mother to a beautiful and vibrant 5 y/o girl. What most people don’t know is that I’ve struggled with obesity, anxiety, and depression my entire life. My anxiety and depression have been crippling for most of my adult life, but I am a master at hiding it. I was a high functioning very ill individual for a long time. The sicker I got the more I would throw myself into my work and the better care I gave to everyone around me. Unfortunately, by the time I got home I barely functioned and my husband and daughter got what was leftover. An exhausted and irritable wife and mother. For many years I blamed my work and the world around me, refusing to see my contribution to my own misery.

In the last hours of Mother’s Day in 2014, I woke up to a forceful knock on the door. It was my neighbor standing in fear saying